The problem of having only 2 in the class is that there is no excuse not to work out in front of the mirrors. Last week I was safely down at the other, mirror-less end of the room. Last night, I got to see me in all my glory. And while I am learning to really appreciate the changing shape of me (which has gone from less "lumpy" to more "curvy"...though still with a very long way to go to "this is the weight that is best for my health)....working in front of the mirror showed me things I am not so fond of noticing. Mostly: upper arms. OMIGOSH. I mentioned a few days ago in a TMI moment that being less "full" has meant more floppy/jiggly/etc in a very unwelcome way. Well my poor upper arms. They are less like tightly packed sausages and baby, have they ever got movement. They flapped like wings...I practically expected to take flight! NOT. PRETTY!!!
However, I have decided that this surprises really only ME...everyone else around me has been seeing these wonder arms all along. So I just need to get over the horror and stay on track: the objective is loving my body, not finding something to hate and dwelling on it. Some of the upper arm thing will resolve itself as I continue to condition; some of it I will be stuck with, partly as a consequence of being so very overweight for so very long (the skin is still there, even if it ain't stuffed full of fat anymore, after all) and partly as just a natural thing...being 45 AIN'T being 16, thank God, and I'll happily take the flappy wings in exchange for not having to live the wretched emotions that came back with that uhhh perkier body.
On a slightly related note, I'll be buying an exercise ball and mat tonight, because we did the situps and pushups on the ball-on-mat last night and I already know the clock is ticking...by this evening, I'm gonna once again be feeling my abs and other muscles in an ouch, ouch, OUCH kind of way. I'm not willing to spend every weekend in pain and I'm sure as heck not giving up the fun of kickboxing (who KNOWS what groovy smackdown I might learn next week, after all?!) so I just need to start doing a few of those situps and pushups every day, to avoid the pain.
And speaking of shopping...yes, it's paycheck day. I've started working on my (healthy) grocery list but also on figuring out what fitness things I need to buy this round (after 9 months without a paycheck, payday is like CHRISTMAS, people!) So in addition to the ball and mat, I also want to find:
- something warmer to run in - I need long sleeves for sure, and it's time to learn how to layer running stuff, because 5 AM is definitely getting colder as fall advances, so maybe some kind of jacket too.
- a good pair of bike shorts with the most diaper-like giant thick padded seat in them that I can lay my hands on...I'd like to say bye-bye to bike seat pain and I don't mind looking funny to do it. I was going to get these cool combo capri-pants and skirt, but it's getting cold, so I think I'll just get shorts to wear under my jeans for now and by spring, I'll be a lot cuter in the skirt combo thing and it'll be a smaller size.
- maybe some more reflective tape and such - it's getting dark earlier and I'm not prepared to give up biking after work.
Not bad for a Friday morning.