No run again this morning. I negotiated hard with my foot, but...nothing doing. Truth: it was all I could do not to just sit down and cry.
I want to run.
I realized at that hour of the morning, I am not able to do the hard work of "forming a new plan." So today's objective will be, while I'm awake and actually capable of thought, to make a backup plan. Something I can just "do instead" without having to think of what it will be.
A year ago, I was having to trick myself into faithful running by making my bed as I got out of it, dressing fast, and getting out on the street before I could think of a reason to stay in bed. Tricking myself into faithfulness isn't the need any more, at least when it comes to exercise.
I just need a backup plan.