wiped out

I'm in bed, and couldn't be gladder (not a word and I don't care) to be here.

Struggled not to nod off while driving to work. The struggle came earlier than usual and was harder to fight off than usual. Oy. I gotta turn this around.

Working in a domestic violence shelter sometimes feels almost like a "normal" job, but today was not one of those days. It's a crisis center, and today it was one long crisis. I couldn't get lunch till 1:15, which was mostly fine because my stomach didn't get better. Had another can of chicken noodle soup (220). Drank 2 bottles of water at work.

On the way home I was wiped out, emotional, and really hungry. I counted my calories for the day and realized I could do some stress eating, if I was careful. Drove through McDonalds and got a cheeseburger (310) and an ice cream cone (150) and an ice water. Felt almost better after that, though I almost nodded off again on the drive home.

Dinner at my parents' tonight to see my brother again...last time I'll see him before he goes home tomorrow. Had 7 oz steak from the grill (500), 1 oz grilled catfish (30), slice of grilled portabella mushroom (10), 1/2 cup frozen fruit mix (40), 1/2 cup cottage cheese (116), and 1/2 cup a sugar-free dessert (30) my sister made with a bit of fruit in it. Most numbers in this paragraph are very rough estimates. The food was amazing and delicious, but my stomach definitely got worse immediately after eating...I guess I should have had another can of soup instead.

Calories for the day: 1626.

Came home at 8 pm to get in bed, because I just felt too icky to be around people one minute longer. Not "sick"...just incredibly tired and uncomfortably nauseous.

my body is talking, and i am listening

Tis another queasy morning. Bowl of chicken noodle soup is waiting for me to work up the courage. I'll go ahead and count the (220) on the presumption that I'm gonna do it.

exquisite dinner

Tonight the Swank posse, minus the minors, enjoyed a nice dinner at the Livermore, which is unquestionably the nicest restaurant in my town. I am happy to report that I behaved Pretty Darn Well.

1 honey glazed chicken breast (250) with 1 tbsp walnuts (50)
1/2 cup wild rice (100 calories)
1/2 cup roasted green beans (40)
1/2 cup cottage cheese (116)
and ice water with lemon

I have even have leftovers to take for lunch tomorrow...how cool is that?!

Ummm I think I also had another (100) calories' worth of 7up in the afternoon. Really didn't feel snacky because everything available made my tummy hurt to think of it.

Total calories for the day: 1409.

I'm a little hungry, but I'm in bed, so I think maybe I'm done.

recovery sometimes sucks, but it's better than being sick

Okay so I rode out the consequences of my breakfast and just let me be very clear: I got the message. Listen to my body. Didn't I just write about that?! Apparently I am still a slow learner...

Way sleepy too, this morning. Hard to make it to work without nodding off in traffic.

Being nice to me today, after that bit of hard-headedness this morning. I sipped another (100) calories' worth of 7up through the morning, and had a can of chunky chicken noodle soup for lunch (220) with the last 4 saltines in my drawer (48).

I cannot tolerate water just now (bleh, I shudder just thinking of it), though my almost complete alienation from "the little room" is a clear indicator of dehydration. Sipping that 7up and working up the courage to do the right thing. Body. Needs. Water. Just do it, Karen!

Total calories so far today: 753 and not craving anything at all.

early and elvis-ish

Starting out pretty icky this morning, but I am confident that will pass. When I was pregnant with my son (who is now 19), I was morning-noon-and-night sick for the entire nine months, including in the delivery room. The leftover effect of that is that my body sometimes plays "morning sick" for awhile after I've had a round of stomach stuff. It's trying to bully me this morning, but it'll shut up soon enough.

Confident of that, I had this breakfast: whole grain toast (100), 1 tbsp smuckers (105), 1 small banana (90), (yeah call me Elvis, I like peanut butter and banana) and 1 cup skim milk (90).

Slightly regretting challenging the nausea just now. It'll pass. It'll pass.

I hope.

much mo betta

So I got through my afternoon, though I did wish for my bed approximately every 4 seconds. Skipped youth church tonight and went right to my parents' house to see my nieces one last time while they are here visiting. Sat out on the front porch, watching them play, and that fresh spring air really did it for me...just blew my yuckies away. HALLELUJAH!!!

Supper out as one very large, very loud, very fun group (you KNOW when the Swanks walk in the room, all 14 of us and no one serious in the whole bunch)!

I had already had another 100 calories' worth of 7up when I got there. Had diet soda and 2 square pieces of pizza (one all meat, one everything in the house). I am supposing it was 500ish calories worth.

That puts me at 1410 for the day, and this tummy don't want no mo.

toughing it out - lunch report

How can it be only noon? Oh golly, where is my bed?

7up this morning 2 cups (200)

Lunch: can of chicken noodle soup (220), 10 saltines (120), 1/2 cup 7up (50).

Total calories for the day: 810.

There is not a choice of "what to eat" at this time - I will be eating what my stomach will permit.

Back to attempting productivity.

k